Naddy

 it wasnt easy to bring myself up.
 it was hard to try being exuberant when you're not. 
it was worst to try and barge in. 
it was tough, as if there was a pillar pushing me back. back and far away from you.
 thus, i tend to fall out and go with the flow. i'd rather stay away when im supposed to. 
after all that PT, i was fatigue. life is so dubious. 
first u'll be smiling and the next, you realise urself becoming mundane throughout. 
but i must say, i am too exhausted afterall. 
she make it sound impossible, however, it might be true. 
im pushing myself too hard.


you cant deny that its the truth.

 

there's more to be said. more to be done. more upcomings. 
it isnt easy. the pillar is tough.
critics after crtitics. they aint gonna bring me down.
im prepared enough for the challenges.
im gonna break it and prove them wrong.
i may be introvert but im not dumb.
i will achieve it and this time, im tougher than the old nadia.
its tough to beat me cause' i aint giving up so easily.
i will cross that line and when i do, u are to shut your gap.
for now, i'll comply.
my words you are to comprehend and remember them.

and finally, its one month anniversary.
i hope history wont repeat.
may this be the last time we celebrate one month anni together.

through everything, im blessed that you were there for me.
like uve said, through rain or shine, u'll never leave me.
and u'll be my guardian angel, forever.
insyaAllah( if GOD wills)
and i myself, promised that :D

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.
what could i say or ask for more.
u're my everything sweetheart.

ure still pushing your luck.
and you can nvr be me.

as times passed by.
you need to just let it off.
just let it out of what is keeping you.

when things go out of control.
all you did was sitting there infront of the comp.
motionless.
and just the fingers racing through the keyboard.
worst still, you talked to me without respect.
how rude could you be?

do you know, im your elder?
how dare you talk to me like that!
seriously, you always spoil my mood.
always..

and it isnt the first time.
dont push your luck.
i mean it, girl!

venting here doesnt work cos, im still in rage and fury.
*sighs*


everything was so sweet until  i started the wave.

location: pink room

mood: cranky

music: ride for you

a lot like love 

how can you tell, if he is sincerely in love with you?
how can you tell, if he is hopelessly devoted to you?
how can you tell, if he really means it, when he says 'i love you'?
how can you tell, if he tells you, he misses you?

how can you tell, if he is the 'one' for you?
how can you tell, if he isnt unfaithful to you?

how?
just tell me.
how? 
you cant just cut open his heart to see if he truely love you. do you?

and it stabbed me deep inside if history repeats itself.
:(

how i wished i could have you by me, and your arms wrapped around me.

location: pink room

mood: busy

music: teardrops on my guitar

 

holidays has been a bore after thailand trip.
i missed everyone. even uncle kitti, our tourguide.
recently, i got myself hooked up into a good storybook by Piper Banks.
it's entitled, 'GEEK HIGH'
about a nerd whom has to change to a new school as she doesnt fit in a normal school.
she has an ability like Matilda's, from Roald Dahl books.
she is a HUMAN CALCULATOR.

also, i have two other books on inspirations.
one, is 'THE LEADER IN YOU' and the other is 'HOW TO DEVELOP SELF-CONFIDENCE & INFLUENCE PEOPLE BY PUBLIC SPEAKING'
im halfway through the GEEK HIGH and hope to finish reading by this week.

Physics homework is tough. i just cant digest anything for now.
i cant find the answer sheet and i have to put that aside for december.
for now, its storybooks and newspapers.


i just need to keep my spirits high and motivate myself.

 

lately, things been wrong.
im not sastified in anything that i do.
i feel down.
but somehow, i couldn't figure out why.

 i feel so stressed up.
and one reason why, is that ive always made tiny lil' things as if it's BIG.
but, by nature, im always like that.
always.

i just want things to be perfect.
but somehow, ive realised and many should too...
that perfect isnt so perfect after all.

things seems wrong.
just wrong.


a puzzle doesnt fit in.

 

sometimes its not easy. 
life's never easy. 
you have to be strong with your own opinions and uphold your goals. 
you just have to keep up to urself. 
never let other people bring you down. 
they are not you and you are not them. 
just be yourself. 
to me, allah is always there to watch over me and guide me through. 

i dont need you to comment about me if you abhor me and make your comments bring me down. cause, if you do, ure never better than me. 

 

you're trying too hard, but you'll never be me.

well, its a new journal for me.
im learning and upgrading myself.
(=

you're lying through your teeth.